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「smith？」saidthewoman。***「thassfunny。myname』ssmithtoo。why，」sheaddedsentimentally，「imightbeyourmother！」

shemight，thoughtwinston，behismother。shewasabouttherightageandphysique，anditwasprobablethatpeoplechangedsomewhataftertwentyyearsinaforced-labourcamp。

nooneelsehadspokentohim。toasurprisingextenttheordinarycriminalsignoredthepartyprisoners。「thepolits，」theycalledthem，withasortofuninterestedcontempt。thepartyprisonersseemedterrifiedofspeakingtoanybody，andaboveallofspeakingtooneanother。onlyonce，whentwopartymembers，bothwomen，werepressedclosetogetheronthebench，heoverheardamidthedinofvoicesafewhurriedly-whisperedwords；andinparticularareferencetosomethingcalled「roomone-ohone」，whichhedidnotunderstand。

itmightbetwoorthreehoursagothattheyhadbroughthimhere。thedullpaininhisbellyneverwentaway，butsometimesitgrewbetterandsometimesworse，andhisthoughtsexpandedorcontractedaccordingly。whenitgrewworsehethoughtonlyofthepainitself，andofhisdesireforfood。whenitgrewbetter，panictookholdofhim。thereweremomentswhenheforesawthethingsthatwouldhappentohimwithsuchactualitythathisheartgallopedandhisbreathstopped。hefeltthesmashoftruncheonsonhiselbowsandiron-shodbootsonhisshins；hesawhimselfgrovellingonthefloor，screamingformercythroughbrokenteeth。hehardlythoughtofjulia。hecouldnotfixhismindonher。helovedherandwouldnotbetrayher；butthatwasonlyafact，knownasheknewtherulesofarithmetic。hefeltnoloveforher，andhehardlyevenwonderedwhatwashappeningtoher。hethoughtoftenerofo』brien，withaflickeringhope。o』brienmightknowthathehadbeenarrested。thebrotherhood，hehadsaid，nevertriedtosaveitsmembers。buttherewastherazorblade；theywouldsendtherazorbladeiftheycould。therewouldbeperhapsfivesecondsbeforetheguardcouldrushintothecell。thebladewouldbiteintohimwithasortofburningcoldness，andeventhefingersthathelditwouldbecuttothebone。everythingcamebacktohissickbody，whichshranktremblingfromthesmallestpain。hewasnotcertainthathewouldusetherazorbladeevenifhegotthechance。itwasmorenaturaltoexistfrommomenttomoment，acceptinganothertenminutes』lifeevenwiththecertaintythattherewastortureattheendofit。