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thetwosturdyguardshadstoopedtotakehimbythearms。***butjustatthismomentheflunghimselfacrossthefloorofthecellandgrabbedoneoftheironlegsthatsupportedthebench。hehadsetupawordlesshowling,likeananimal。theguardstookholdofhimtowrenchhimloose,butheclungonwithastonishingstrength。forperhapstwentysecondstheywerehaulingathim。theprisonerssatquiet,theirhandscrossedontheirknees,lookingstraightinfrontofthem。thehowlingstopped;themanhadnobreathleftforanythingexcepthangingon。thentherewasadifferentkindofcry。akickfromaguard』sboothadbrokenthefingersofoneofhishands。theydraggedhimtohisfeet。
「room101,」saidtheofficer。
themanwasledout,walkingunsteadily,withheadsunken,nursinghiscrushedhand,allthefighthadgoneoutofhim。
alongtimepassed。ifithadbeenmidnightwhentheskull-facedmanwastakenaway,itwasmorning:ifmorning,itwasafternoon。winstonwasalone,andhadbeenaloneforhours。thepainofsittingonthenarrowbenchwassuchthatoftenhegotupandwalkedabout,unreprovedbythetelescreen。thepieceofbreadstilllaywherethechinlessmanhaddroppedit。atthebeginningitneededahardeffortnottolookatit,butpresentlyhungergavewaytothirst。hismouthwasstickyandevil-tasting。thehummingsoundandtheunvaryingwhitelightinducedasortoffaintness,anemptyfeelinginsidehishead。hewouldgetupbecausetheacheinhisboneswasnolongerbearable,andthenwouldsitdownagainalmostatoncebecausehewastoodizzytomakesureofstayingonhisfeet。wheneverhisphysicalsensationswerealittleundercontroltheterrorreturned。sometimeswithafadinghopehethoughtofo』brienandtherazorblade。itwasthinkablethattherazorblademightarriveconcealedinhisfood,ifhewereeverfed。moredimlyhethoughtofjulia。somewhereorothershewassufferingperhapsfarworsethanhe。shemightbescreamingwithpainatthismoment。hethought:「ificouldsavejuliabydoublingmyownpain,wouldidoit?yes,iwould。」butthatwasmerelyanintellectualdecision,takenbecauseheknewthatheoughttotakeit。hedidnotfeelit。inthisplaceyoucouldnotfeelanything,exceptpainandforeknowledgeofpain。besides,wasitpossible,whenyouwereactuallysufferingit,towishforanyreasonthatyourownpainshouldincrease?butthatquestionwasnotanswerableyet。