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「whatisinroom101?」
theexpressionono』brien』sfacedidnotchange。heanswereddrily:
「youknowwhatisinroom101,winston。everyoneknowswhatisinroom101。」
heraisedafingertothemaninthewhitecoat。evidentlythesessionwasatanend。aneedlejerkedintowinston』sarm。hesankalmostinstantlyintodeepsleep。
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「therearethreestagesinyourreintegration,」saido』brien。「thereislearning,thereisunderstanding,andthereisacceptance。itistimeforyoutoenteruponthesecondstage。」
asalways,winstonwaslyingflatonhisback。butoflatehisbondswerelooser。theystillheldhimtothebed,buthecouldmovehiskneesalittleandcouldturnhisheadfromsidetosideandraisehisarmsfromtheelbow。thedial,also,hadgrowntobelessofaterror。hecouldevadeitspangsifhewasquick-wittedenough:itwaschieflywhenheshowedstupiditythato』brienpulledthelever。sometimestheygotthroughawholesessionwithoutuseofthedial。hecouldnotrememberhowmanysessionstherehadbeen。thewholeprocessseemedtostretchoutoveralong,indefinitetime—weeks,possibly—andtheintervalsbetweenthesessionsmightsometimeshavebeendays,sometimesonlyanhourortwo。
「asyouliethere,」saido』brien,「youhaveoftenwonderedyouhaveevenaskedme—whytheministryofloveshouldexpendsomuchtimeandtroubleonyou。andwhenyouwerefreeyouwerepuzzledbywhatwasessentiallythesamequestion。youcouldgraspthemechanicsofthesocietyyoulivedin,butnotitsunderlyingmotives。doyourememberwritinginyourdiary,『iunderstandhow:idonotunderstandwhy』?itwaswhenyouthoughtabout『why』thatyoudoubtedyourownsanity。youhavereadthebook,goldstein』sbook,orpartsofit,atleast。didittellyouanythingthatyoudidnotknowalready?」