Chapter 44
ANDTHISISNOTELFLAND—WHATGOLDWILLNOTBUY
WhenCarriegotbackonthestage,shefoundthatovernightherdressing-roomhadbeenchanged.
「Youaretousethisroom,MissMadenda,」saidoneofthestagelackeys.
Nolongeranyneedofclimbingseveralflightsofstepstoasmallcoopsharedwithanother.Instead,acomparativelylargeandcommodiouschamberwithconveniencesnotenjoyedbythesmallfryoverhead.Shebreatheddeeplyandwithdelight.Hersensationsweremorephysicalthanmental.Infact,shewasscarcelythinkingatall.Heartandbodywerehavingtheirsay.
Graduallythedeferenceandcongratulationgaveheramentalappreciationofherstate.Shewasnolongerordered,butrequested,andthatpolitely.Theothermembersofthecastlookedatherenviouslyasshecameoutarrayedinhersimplehabit,whichsheworeallthroughtheplay.Allthosewhohadsupposedlybeenherequalsandsuperiorsnowsmiledthesmileofsociability,asmuchastosay:「Howfriendlywehavealwaysbeen.」Onlythestarcomedianwhoseparthadbeensodeeplyinjuredstalkedbyhimself.Figuratively,hecouldnotkissthehandthatsmotehim.
Doinghersimplepart,Carriegraduallyrealizedthemeaningoftheapplausewhichwasforher,anditwassweet.Shefeltmildlyguiltyofsomething—perhaps
unworthiness.Whenherassociatesaddressedherinthewingssheonlysmiledweakly.Theprideanddaringofplacewerenotforher.Itneveroncecrossedhermindtobereservedorhaughty—tobeotherthanshehadbeen.AftertheperformancessherodetoherroomwithLola,inacarriageprovided.
Thencameaweekinwhichthefirstfruitsofsuccesswereofferedtoherlips—bowlafterbowl.Itdidnotmatterthathersplendidsalaryhadnotbegun.Theworldseemedsatisfiedwiththepromise.Shebegantogetlettersandcards.AMr.Withers-whomshedidnotknowfromAdam—havinglearnedbysomehookorcrookwheresheresided,bowedhimselfpolitelyin.
「Youwillexcusemeforintruding,」hesaid;「buthaveyoubeenthinkingofchangingyourapartments.」
「Ihadn』tthoughtofit,」returnedCarrie.
「Well,IamconnectedwiththeWellington—thenewhotelonBroadway.Youhaveprobablyseennoticesofitinthepapers.」
Carrierecognizedthenameasstandingforoneofthenewestandmostimposinghostelries.Shehadhearditspokenofashavingasplendidrestaurant.
「Justso,」wentonMr.Withers,acceptingheracknowledgmentoffamiliarity.「Wehavesomeveryelegantroomsatpresentwhichwewouldliketohaveyoulookat,ifyouhavenotmadeupyourmindwhereyouintendtoresideforthesummer.Ourapartmentsareperfectineverydetail—hotandcoldwater,privatebaths,specialhallserviceforeveryfloor,elevators,andallthat.Youknowwhatourrestaurantis.」
Carrielookedathimquietly.Shewaswonderingwhetherhetookhertobeamillionaire.
「Whatareyourrates.」sheinquired.
「Well,now,thatiswhatIcametotalkwithyouprivatelyabout.Ourregularratesareanywherefromthreetofiftydollarsaday.」
「Mercy!」interruptedCarrie.「Icouldn』tpayanysuchrateasthat.」
「Iknowhowyoufeelaboutit,」exclaimedMr.Withers,halting.「Butjustletmeexplain.Isaidthoseareourregularrates.Likeeveryotherhotelwemakespecialoneshowever.Possiblyyouhavenotthoughtaboutit,butyournameisworthsomethingtous.」「Oh!」ejaculatedCarrie,seeingataglance.
「Ofcourse.Everyhoteldependsuponthereputeofitspatrons.Awell-knownactresslikeyourself,」andhebowedpolitely,whileCarrieflushed,「drawsattentiontothehotel,and—althoughyoumaynotbelieveit—patrons.」
「Oh,yes,」returnedCarrie,vacantly,tryingtoarrangethiscuriouspropositioninhermind.
「Now,」continuedMr.Withers,swayinghisderbyhatsoftlyandbeatingoneofhispolishedshoesuponthefloor,「Iwanttoarrange,ifpossible,tohaveyoucomeandstopattheWellington.Youneednottroubleaboutterms.Infact,weneedhardlydiscussthem.Anythingwilldoforthesummer—amerefigure—anythingthatyouthinkyoucouldaffordtopay.」
Carriewasabouttointerrupt,buthegavehernochance.
「Youcancometo-dayorto-morrow—theearlierthebetter—andwewillgiveyouyourchoiceofnice,light,outsiderooms—theverybestwehave.」
「You』reverykind,」saidCarrie,touchedbytheagent』sextremeaffability.「Ishouldliketocomeverymuch.Iwouldwanttopaywhatisright,however.Ishouldn』twantto—」
「Youneednottroubleaboutthatatall,」interruptedMr.Withers.「Wecanarrangethattoyourentiresatisfactionatanytime.Ifthreedollarsadayissatisfactorytoyou,itwillbesotous.Allyouhavetodoistopaythatsumtotheclerkattheendoftheweekormonth,justasyouwish,andhewillgiveyouareceiptforwhattheroomswouldcostifchargedforatourregularrates.」
Thespeakerpaused.
「Supposeyoucomeandlookattherooms,」headded.
「I』dbegladto,」saidCarrie,「butIhavearehearsalthismorning.」
「Ididnotmeanatonce,」hereturned.「Anytimewilldo.Wouldthisafternoonbeinconvenient.」
「Notatall,」saidCarrie.
SuddenlysherememberedLola,whowasoutatthetime.
「Ihavearoom-mate,」sheadded,「whowillhavetogowhereverIdo.Iforgotaboutthat.」
「Oh,verywell,」saidMr.Withers,blandly.「Itisforyoutosaywhomyouwantwithyou.AsIsay,allthatcanbearrangedtosuityourself.」
Hebowedandbackedtowardthedoor.
「Atfour,then,wemayexpectyou.」
「Yes,」saidCarrie.
「Iwillbetheretoshowyou,」andsoMr.Witherswithdrew.
AfterrehearsalCarrieinformedLola.「Didtheyreally.」exclaimedthelatter,thinkingoftheWellingtonasagroupofmanagers.「Isn』tthatfine.Oh,jolly!It』ssoswell.That』swherewedinedthatnight
wewentwiththosetwoCushingboys.Don』tyouknow.」
「Iremember,」saidCarrie.
「Oh,it』sasfineasitcanbe.」
「We』dbetterbegoingupthere,」observedCarrielaterintheafternoon.
TheroomswhichMr.WithersdisplayedtoCarrieandLolawerethreeandbath—asuiteontheparlorfloor.Theyweredoneinchocolateanddarkred,withrugsandhangingstomatch.ThreewindowslookeddownintobusyBroadwayontheeast,threeintoasidestreetwhichcrossedthere.Thereweretwolovelybedrooms,setwithbrassandwhiteenamelbeds,whiteribbon-trimmedchairsandchiffonierstomatch.In
thethirdroom,orparlor,wasapiano,aheavypianolamp,withashadeofgorgeouspattern,alibrarytable,severalhugeeasyrockers,somedadobookshelves,andagiltcuriocase,filledwithoddities.Pictureswereuponthewalls,softTurkishpillowsuponthedivanfootstoolsofbrownplushuponthefloor.Suchaccommodationswouldordinarilycostahundreddollarsaweek.
「Oh,lovely!」exclaimedLola,walkingabout.
「Itiscomfortable,」saidCarrie,whowasliftingalacecurtainandlookingdownintocrowdedBroadway.
Thebathwasahandsomeaffair,doneinwhiteenamel,withalarge,blue-borderedstonetubandnickeltrimmings.Itwasbrightandcommodious,withabeveledmirrorsetinthewallatoneendandincandescentlightsarrangedinthreeplaces.
「Doyoufindthesesatisfactory.」observedMr.Withers.
「Oh,very,」answeredCarrie.
「Well,then,anytimeyoufinditconvenienttomovein,theyareready.Theboywillbringyouthekeysatthedoor.」
Carrienotedtheelegantlycarpetedanddecoratedhall,themarbledlobby,andshowywaiting-room.Itwassuchaplaceasshehadoftendreamedofoccupying.
「Iguesswe』dbettermoverightaway,don』tyouthinkso.」sheobservedtoLola,thinkingofthecommonplacechamberinSeventeenthStreet.
「Oh,byallmeans,」saidthelatter.
Thenextdayhertrunksleftforthenewabode.
Dressing,afterthematineeonWednesday,aknockcameatherdressing-roomdoor.
Carrielookedatthecardhandedbytheboyandsufferedashockofsurprise.
「TellherI』llberightout,」shesaidsoftly.Then,lookingatthecard,added:「Mrs.Vance.」
「Why,youlittlesinner,」thelatterexclaimed,asshesawCarriecomingtowardheracrossthenowvacantstage.「Howintheworlddidthishappen.」
Carrielaughedmerrily.Therewasnotraceofembarrassmentinherfriend』smanner.Youwouldhavethoughtthatthelongseparationhadcomeaboutaccidentally.
「Idon』tknow,」returnedCarrie,warming,inspiteofherfirsttroubledfeelings,towardthishandsome,good-naturedyoungmatron.
「Well,youknow,IsawyourpictureintheSundaypaper,butyournamethrewmeoff.Ithoughtitmustbeyouorsomebodythatlookedjustlikeyou,andIsaid:『Well,now,Iwillgorightdownthereandsee.』Iwasnevermoresurprisedinmylife.Howareyou,anyway.」
「Oh,verywell,」returnedCarrie.「Howhaveyoubeen.」
「Fine.Butaren』tyouasuccess!Dear,oh!Allthepaperstalkingaboutyou.Ishouldthinkyouwouldbejusttooproudtobreathe.Iwasalmostafraidtocomebackherethisafternoon.」
「Oh,nonsense,」saidCarrie,blushing.「YouknowI』dbegladtoseeyou.」
「Well,anyhow,hereyouare.Can』tyoucomeupandtakedinnerwithmenow.Whereareyoustopping.」
「AttheWellington,」saidCarrie,whopermittedherselfatouchofprideintheacknowledgment.
「Oh,areyou.」exclaimedtheother,uponwhomthenamewasnotwithoutitspropereffect.
Tactfully,Mrs.VanceavoidedthesubjectofHurstwood,ofwhomshecouldnothelpthinking.NodoubtCarriehadlefthim.Thatmuchshesurmised.
「Oh,Idon』tthinkIcan,」saidCarrie,「to-night.Ihavesolittletime.
Imustbebackhereby7.30.Won』tyoucomeanddinewithme.」
「I』dbedelighted,butIcan』tto-night,」saidMrs.
VancestudyingCarrie』sfineappearance.Thelatter』sgoodfortunemadeherseemmorethaneverworthyanddelightfulintheotherseyes.「Ipromisedfaithfullytobehomeatsix.」Glancingatthesmallgoldwatchpinnedtoherbosom,sheadded:「Imustbegoing,too.Tellmewhenyou』recomingup,ifatall.」
「Why,anytimeyoulike,」saidCarrie.
「Well,to-morrowthen.I』mlivingattheChelseanow.」
「Movedagain.」exclaimedCarrie,laughing.
「Yes.YouknowIcan』tstaysixmonthsinoneplace.Ijusthavetomove.Remembernow—half-pastfive.」
「Iwon』tforget,」saidCarrie,castingaglanceatherasshewentaway.Thenitcametoherthatshewasasgoodasthiswomannow—perhapsbetter.Somethingintheother』ssolicitudeandinterestmadeherfeelasifsheweretheonetocondescend.
Now,asoneachprecedingday,letterswerehandedherbythedoormanattheCasino.ThiswasafeaturewhichhadrapidlydevelopedsinceMonday.Whattheycontainedshewellknew.Mashnoteswereoldaffairsintheirmildestform.SherememberedhavingreceivedherfirstonefarbackinColumbiaCity.Sincethen,asachorusgirl,shehadreceivedothers—gentlemenwhoprayedforanengagement.TheywerecommonsportbetweenherandLola,whoreceivedsomealso.Theybothfrequentlymadelightofthem.
Now,however,theycamethickandfast.Gentlemenwithfortunesdidnothesitatetonote,asanadditiontotheirownamiablecollectionofvirtues,thattheyhadtheirhorsesandcarriages.Thusone:
「Ihaveamillioninmyownright.Icouldgiveyoueveryluxury.Thereisn』tanythingyoucouldaskforthatyoucouldn』thave.Isaythis,notbecauseIwanttospeakofmymoney,butbecauseIloveyouandwishtogratifyyoureverydesire.Itislovethatpromptsmetowrite.Willyounotgivemeonehalfhourinwhichtopleadmycause.」
SuchoftheselettersascamewhileCarriewasstillintheSeventeenthStreetplacewerereadwithmoreinterest—thoughneverdelight—thanthosewhicharrivedaftershewasinstalledinherluxuriousquartersattheWellington.Eventherehervanity—orthatself-appreciationwhich,initsmorerabidform,iscalledvanity—wasnotsufficientlycloyedtomakethesethingswearisome.Adulation,beingnewinanyform,pleasedher.Onlyshewassufficientlywisetodistinguishbetweenheroldconditionandhernewone.Shehadnothadfameormoneybefore.Nowtheyhadcome.Shehadnothadadulationandaffectionatepropositionsbefore.Nowtheyhadcome.Wherefore.Shesmiledtothinkthatmenshouldsuddenlyfindhersomuchmoreattractive.Intheleastwayitincitedhertocoolnessandindifference.
「Dolookhere,」sheremarkedtoLola.「Seewhatthismansays:『Ifyouwillonlydeigntograntmeonehalf-hour,』」sherepeated,withanimitationoflanguor.「Theidea.Aren』tmensilly.」
「Hemusthavelotsofmoney,thewayhetalks,」observedLola.「That』swhattheyallsay,」saidCarrie,innocently.
「Whydon』tyouseehim,」suggestedLola,「andhearwhathehastosay.」
「IndeedIwon』t,」saidCarrie.「Iknowwhathe』dsay.Idon』twanttomeetanybodythatway.」
Lolalookedatherwithbig,merryeyes.
「Hecouldn』thurtyou,」shereturned.「Youmighthavesomefunwithhim.」
Carrieshookherhead.
「You』reawfullyqueer,」returnedthelittle,blue-eyedsoldier.
Thuscrowdedfortune.Forthiswholeweek,thoughherlargesalaryhadnotyetarrived,itwasasiftheworldunderstoodandtrustedher.Withoutmoney—ortherequisitesum,atleast—sheenjoyedtheluxurieswhichmoneycouldbuy.Forherthedoorsoffine
placesseemedtoopenquitewithouttheasking.Thesepalatialchambers,howmarvelouslytheycametoher.TheelegantapartmentsofMrs.VanceintheChelsea—thesewerehers.Mensentflowers,lovenotes,offersoffortune.Andstillherdreamsranriot.Theonehundredandfifty!theonehundredandfifty!WhatadoortoanAladdin』scaveitseemedtobe.Eachday,herheadalmostturnedbydevelopments,herfanciesofwhatherfortunemustbe,withamplemoney,grewandmultiplied.Sheconceivedofdelightswhichwerenot—sawlightsofjoythatneverwereonlandorsea.Then,atlast,afteraworldofanticipation,cameherfirstinstallmentofonehundredandfiftydollars.
Itwaspaidtoheringreenbacks—threetwenties,sixtens,andsixfives.Thuscollecteditmadeaveryconvenientroll.Itwasaccompaniedbyasmileandasalutationfromthecashierwhopaidit.
「Ah,yes,」saidthelatter,whensheapplied;「MissMadenda—onehundredandfiftydollars.Quiteasuccesstheshowseemstohavemade.」
「Yes,indeed,」returnedCarrie.
Rightaftercameoneoftheinsignificantmembersofthecompany,andsheheardthechangedtoneofaddress.
「Howmuch.」saidthesamecashier,sharply.One,suchasshehadonlyrecentlybeen,waswaitingforhermodestsalary.Ittookherbacktothefewweeksinwhichshehadcollected—orratherhadreceived—almostwiththeairofadomestic,four-fiftyperweekfromalordlyforemaninashoefactory—amanwho,indistributingtheenvelopes,hadthemannerofaprincedolingoutfavorstoaservilegroupofpetitioners.SheknewthatoutinChicagothisverydaythesamefactorychamberwasfullofpoorhomely-cladgirlsworkinginlonglinesatclatteringmachines;thatatnoontheywouldeatamiserablelunchinahalf-hour;thatSaturdaytheywouldgather,asthey
hadwhenshewasoneofthem,andacceptthesmallpayforworkahundredtimesharderthanshewasnowdoing.Oh,itwassoeasynow!Theworldwassorosyandbright.Shefeltsothrilledthatshemustneedswalkbacktothehoteltothink,wonderingwhatsheshoulddo.
Itdoesnottakemoneylongtomakeplainitsimpotence,providingthedesiresareintherealmofaffection.Withheronehundredandfiftyinhand,Carriecouldthinkofnothingparticularlytodo.Initself,asatangible,apparentthingwhichshecouldtouchandlookupon,itwasadivertingthingforafewdays,butthissoonpassed.Herhotelbilldidnotrequireitsuse.Herclotheshadforsometimebeenwhollysatisfactory.Anotherdayortwoandshewouldreceiveanotherhundredandfifty.Itbegantoappearasifthiswerenotsostartlinglynecessarytomaintainherpresentstate.Ifshewantedtodoanythingbetterormovehighershemusthavemore—agreatdealmore.
Nowacriticcalledtogetuponeofthosetinselinterviewswhichshinewithcleverobservations,showupthewitofcritics,displaythefollyofcelebrities,anddivertthepublic.HelikedCarrie,andsaidso,publicly—adding,however,thatshewasmerelypretty,good-natured,andlucky.Thiscutlikeaknife.The「Herald,」gettingupanentertainmentforthebenefitofitsfreeicefund,didherthehonortobeghertoappearalongwithcelebritiesfornothing.Shewasvisitedbyayoungauthor,whohadaplaywhichhethoughtshecouldproduce.Alas,shecouldnotjudge.Ithurthertothinkit.Thenshefoundshemustputhermoneyinthebankforsafety,andsomoving,finallyreachedtheplacewhereitstruckherthatthedoortolife』sperfectenjoymentwasnotopen.
Graduallyshebegantothinkitwasbecauseitwassummer.Nothingwasgoingonmuchsavesuchentertainmentsastheoneinwhichshewasthestar.FifthAvenuewasboardedupwheretherichhad
desertedtheirmansions.MadisonAvenuewaslittlebetter.Broadwaywasfullofloafingthespiansinsearchofnextseason』sengagements.Thewholecitywasquietandhernightsweretakenupwithherwork.Hencethefeelingthattherewaslittletodo.
「Idon』tknow,」shesaidtoLolaoneday,sittingatoneofthewindowswhichlookeddownintoBroadway,「Igetlonely;don』tyou.」
「No,」saidLola,「notveryoften.Youwon』tgoanywhere.That』swhat』sthematterwithyou.」
「WherecanIgo.」
「Why,there』relotsofplaces,」returnedLola,whowasthinkingofherownlightsometourneyswiththegayyouths.「Youwon』tgowithanybody.」
「Idon』twanttogowiththesepeoplewhowritetome.Iknowwhatkindtheyare.」
「Yououghtn』ttobelonely,」saidLola,thinkingofCarrie』ssuccess.「There』relotswouldgivetheirearstobeinyourshoes.」
Carrielookedoutagainatthepassingcrowd.
「Idon』tknow,」shesaid.
Unconsciouslyheridlehandswerebeginningtoweary.